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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 12:16

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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He knew the spot.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She wouldn,t have been !

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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She loved him until the end.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Why did i forgive my father ?

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

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But, we were locked up after school.

I was seconnd youngest,

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And i lived it daily.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I said to her

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She found it foreign!.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

So, i spoilt her more .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

All the time i was locked up.

I write beautiful poetry .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

We were not on the streets..

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Especially a lifetime of it.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Would this be the day?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Comes on , in middle age.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

This is soul school!.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I could never make a relationship work though!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

So whats the point in blame.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

But it wasn’t much.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

When she asked me how she looked .

I waited trembling.

I have no regrets .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Ive learnt so much.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I think the readers, may guess!

One cannot live in the past .

I never cut or harmed myself..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I will be 64.

I was 9 years of age.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

She married twice! .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

It was going to be , some day.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I was scared of men, in general

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

He resisted the act ,that day.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

What did i know ?

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But ive been too sick for many years..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I couldn’t, believe it.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Put me off passion for life!!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

She was in good health!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Who then, do I blame.?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

My family never makes their pension either.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I don,t even have a pension.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I was very sick at this time too.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

We all went to grammer schools

(And it was in our own minds.)

Was to survive, this bastard.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Im still living with it.

My life is so biszare .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.